Just wanna be | wanna bewitch you in the moonlight

[privatelylustful]

[The world is new and he is new. There are all sorts of new instincts swimming through his mind - new words and ideas and thoughts that swim through his body. He's less bothered by his beautiful wings molting. There are new feathers growing in and they are gorgeous. Blue and green and purple with a glorious gold and purple and blue eye on the edge of each feather.

Somehow none of it matters and all of it matters but he has his rules and his things to do. It is a dry desert and the only person who can make it bloom belongs to him.

It's only fair. He has saved them and if his brother asked he would be with him with these new skills and these new feelings. It's like he's always known these things and he's seen humans do this. There's a vague memory of agreeing to it, of angels and demons sitting at a table to discuss how humans operate.

It's worth questioning.

If these are instincts for humans that he is somehow coming to understand. Wrapped in a black and gold loincloth, he stands a few feet away and watches her work.]

...The world only blooms for two people. For Her - and for you. [He smiles, and it's one full of innocence. He is crafted to be perfect and unlike his brother, he remains still beautiful. Still beloved.

Even if he doesn't feel like it anymore.]

...You have a wonderful gift.

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[sathan]

( she's made her own sort of garden, something much smaller, edible berries and fruits to sustain her. the fallen around her don't really need it but she's still human -- she needs to eat.

her motions are much more careful now, much more practised when asmodeus approaches her than when he'd first seen her grow grass beneath them, spontaneous and uncontrolled. now she's focused, purposely cultivating the berries in front of her, a peaceful expression on her.

as he speaks a fond smile comes to her, her hands falling to rest on her knees where she's knelt as lilith turns her head to look at him )

As you remind me.

( lucifer found her useful, helped her talent but asmodeus was still really the only other that spoke to her, at least in such a positive way. lilith was still very clueless about her gifts but they were hers, she'd accepted them and was beginning to make them hers )

Hello Asmodeus.

[privatelylustful]

[Here is the terrible thing. The most terrible thing is that she stirs things no angel has ever felt. No demon - for that is what Lucifer says he is now - probably has either. It's a feeling similar to what he felt she felt for-

No. Just thinking of her makes him hurt. It's more then that. It's the sense of an identity and his own desires and... and instead he focuses on her. On the swell of her breasts and the curve of her hip, on the way the breeze blows through her hair and her bright eyes and...

There is a sense of want. She looks so happy however as he takes a step forward to look at her garden, wings tucked behind him.]

...Do you - what are they? All of these berries? They're beautiful.

[Once upon a time he would have said A credit to Her glory.]

They're a credit to your skill.

[stepping forward, he knelt to examine a particularly bright set of berries, fingers rolling them around before he looked up at her as something-

something pulsed through his chest down to his loins. His smile brightened and dimmed before tilting his head to look at her.]

I'm never not going to be amazed by your skill.

[sathan]

( somehow his words spark something within her, a brightness, something that warms her and she always feels happier for it. it's not just that he's her only positive contact but that she's become fond of him, of their conversations.

her head dips slide at his praise, smile widening, tilting her head so she can continue looking at him )

You can eat them.

( her hand moves to rest on his, her other hand picking a couple more berries and eating them herself )

Your kind are unique but I still need all of this. So I created myself a garden to provide what I needed.

[privatelylustful]

[When her hand touches his his chest flutters before he reaches down to pick up one and then nibbling at them. Human beings are all sensation and he's still not used to that - sometimes it feels like his physical sensations are heightened - addicting - like he should do more with it but gosh those berries are good.

Picking up one he offers it to her. Distantly a serpent offers an apple. Two creatures, lost in a different garden-

A better one.

There's one horrible moment that he thinks he wants to touch her lips, to touch her like these berries, gentle pulling and picking and nudging.]

...What's the word. Michael was talking about it.

Delicious?

Those are delicious.

[sathan]

They are.

( rather than pluck the berry from his fingers to eat it she leans to his hand, eating it straight from his fingers. he'll find if they traversed the rest of the garden that she liked everything in it and perhaps that was by design, that only fruits that lilith enjoyed would ever grow. her own delights )

And almost a shame that no one else would enjoy them.

( those that look down on her look down on this, finding themselves better than it )

[privatelylustful]

[His hand moves back to her lips, gently, gently brushing juice off with his thumb and finger before that same jolt of something moves through him.

He can feel his wings flutter.]

I'll enjoy them.

And if you want to ...if you want me to find people who will love them I suppose I could.

[This is Lucifer's woman. That hits him. This is his woman but he treats her so poorly and she's not some sort of pet, sitting here in a pen like they had been up there...

There's a hole in his heart but surprisingly something drips into it and he moves the hand that touched her to her cheek. It rests there.]

You deserve that. I mean you make people happy. I'm happy, I'm happy for the first time since I fell...

[It bursts out and his heart hovers. He takes a step closer to her half in fear of Lucifer and half in fear of the world around them. His wings are out out of his own accord -

But they've changed. Instead of that pure white, the glory of heaven, they shine, now blue, now black, now green. They shine in her grove, glimmering like gems.]

[sathan]

( it's a simple touch, the hand on her cheek but her eyes close, nuzzling slightly into his hand. and it's one of the first times that someone has touched her, has given her simple affection and it's as if her heart bursts, the simple joy of someone touching her, of saying such kind things to her when the rest of her existence is cruelty or spent alone )

You make me happy.

( it's a whispered admission as if she's embarrassed about it. he praises her so much but she feels lesser than them even with what she can do, unworthy in their presence.

but not in his. he raises her up, makes her feel loved and treasured. worshipped. and she loves him for it.

her hand comes up to rest on his, a slight tilt of her head so that her lips can brush the palm of his hand, the briefest of kisses before she whispers again )

You make me happier than I've ever known. As if this is all worth it.

[sathan]

( it had been several days since they'd been together, since they'd acted on instinct and attempted to be intimate. lilith didn't have any regrets about it with him, just wishes that it had ended differently.

but this time lilith hopes that it will. she'd kept herself busy, scarcely seen which could look like she's avoiding him.

today he'll find out why. there's a silent offer of her hand, smile on her as she leads him back to her garden. and he'll easily see what's different. where before it had been open with plants and flowers this time there are trees at the bottom, the exact place she leads him.

it isn't just that there are trees but what they offer: shade, quiet. privacy. under the canopy of the trees they're hidden, particularly as lilith leads him a little further in, hidden in the shade and behind a tree.

she stops walking, turns to him. she doesn't ask what he thinks, acting simply on why she'd brought him here, pressing up on her tiptoes to kiss him.

lilith had felt safe and guarded between his wings and now she's offering them the same, somewhere private and hidden. somewhere free for them to fuck in. because here with him in this privacy-- she truly feels free )

[privatelylustful]

[He does not understand entirely what Lucifer has commanded him to do save that the garden is the type of place to do it in. His brother commands and he obeys and he has been sent out to oversee and watch Adam and Eve and all he knows is that Eve is subservient to Adam and it makes his skin crawl.

Mostly because it is right and good but also wrong. This is the decision that his brother fought for for him. For them. I can chose.

This is how he knows that Lucifer may have "saved" Lilith (he did not) in his mind, she is his love, his joy, she makes it worthwhile.

So he squeezes her fingers as he kisses her back, eyes shining.]

We have a private place. Though I'll miss having you in my wings.

[sathan]

( her other hand comes up to cup his cherk, lightly stroking )

You can always hold me in your wings.

( even in here. they were secluded but still with plenty of space for him and even if this were already private there was a different kind of intimacy in being in his wings, a special thing he was sharing with her.

she kisses again, briefer, light nip at his lips as she pulls away )

I wanted somewhere for us, a place no one could see us. I-- ( she squeezes his fingers ) I want to try it again.

[privatelylustful]

[At the mention of It again he thinks of what Lucifer has shown him-

(Do you see brother? Do you see them? They rut like animals in the meadow, her chosen creation. Blessed to always be forgiven by her.

They're all the things we should have been. Do you see?

And they do rut. It's violent, tearing at each other. His brother turns to look at him before laughing, a dark humorless chuckle.

'Ah brother. You've discovered my gift to you. That feeling in your chest? That's lust. It's a cock, my brother. Humans will lust after it and you shall use it as a means of turning them against her commandments. It is a powerful position I have given you.

Their lust is yours to govern. You see what love to them is. Tearing each other apart but ah the dance between the two of them. The dance between them all... That...that is yours.)

He raised a hand to her face to cup her cheek.]

...Are you sure? I won't hurt you.

[Not like Eve. Not where she screamed beneath a man's touch. Still, there were some things...

His eyes closed and he shed the cloth at his waist. Pressing against her, he leaned into her, breath soft.]

I have missed you. My love. My only love.

[sathan]

I'm sure.

( part of her still expects it to hurt, expects that only he'll find such a pleasure she wants to still try. being so close to him felt wonderful, being the one that he chose this with felt special. being loved by him--

she kisses him again, deeply, such want and passion flooding her, pouring into the kiss. because lilith also loves him.

lilith kisses until her lungs burn, kissing again, then again, each one shorter from her lack of breath until she's left panting against him.

she rests her head against him, still caressing his cheek. and there's a small whisper from her, almost inaudible )

I trust you. I love you.

[privatelylustful]

[('Look at them brother. See what they do and know what they know. This is your dominion.'

The woman Eve screamed and the man Adam, Lilith's former master, mastered her. His hands pulled her hair back and he took her from behind.

There was no tenderness. Not even as they spawned but still she bore children or at least was ready to. that would not happen with this - could not - only his brother was to bear and-

'Look brother. Do you see? She commands they couple for children. This is what that looks like. You...will teach them to couple for pleasure and idle gain.)

His hands run through her hair, slowly, tantalizingly slow before taking her face in his hands and kissing her hard.]

Stop me the moment it hurts. I...

[His heart flickers and he presses his head to hers. His tongue probes her mouth before he takes her shoulders and lifts her up against him.]

I'm going to lie you down...and I could use a soft patch of grass for you.

[sathan]

( there's a light sound as she's lifted, something between a gasp and a giggle and already she can feel him harder against her, more obvious as she wraps her legs around him.

but he's not the only one affected, lilith feeling a coiling low in her, a strange little feeling she feels only for him and she kisses him briefly again, tugging her dress over her head.

and before he can lower her she grabs one of his hands, guiding it between them )

Do you know what you do to me?

( his was obvious to see, the hardening of his cock which she'd begun to love, a little afraid still by the size of it but awed by what she did to him. hers was more subtle, intimate, something he'll learn now as she presses his hand between her legs, letting him feel the damp flesh there.

and this time she's wetter, more relaxed around him, eager for what will come. and as his fingers press against her a soft sound slips from her. oh, it feels good being touched.

her eyes fall shut, slight response to his touch but also a little magic, the grass around them thickening, a little mossy growth to pad the ground out for them, a better cushion to lay her on. now shewas ready )

[sathan]

( she doesn't know whether she's crying from the pain or the fear, sat in her garden trying to hide from the world. from the angels. she didn't need them to see this, not when they already thought her weak or foolish or worse.

and lucifer-- he'd known about them. she'd been sleeping with asmodeus for months now, the frequency of their encounters increasing out of lust. love. it was no wonder that he knew, really. it wasn't that he'd cared, simply laughing at their relationship, laughing at lilith's declaration of love.

he hadn't cared.

but that wasn't what hurt.

he'd spat on her thoughts, had grabbed her and whispered what he'd wanted from her. lucifer had plans and jobs for everyone and finally lilith was being given hers.

except she'd refused. or had tried to. he hadn't responded well, laughing at her attempts before becoming angry, burning her hands in the fires of hell.

she had no magic that could soothe it, no way to do anything where trying to touch something hurt her. all she could try and cling to was her privacy until it stopped hurting )

[privatelylustful]

[Asmodeus had dreamed.

It was his first dream. You have to dream to understand their dreams brother but it was a bad dream. A dream of the fall and he had gone to him and screamed and they had fought. It was nothing new. They fought all the time but he had taken it because he always lost. He made sure he always lost because he still found it in him to love him...

He ran to her garden. To her, to get out of his head because caring for someone else reminded him of the creature he once was. The proud angel who cared for Her will. Who protected the weak...

And when he parts the grove and finds her, his heart pounds. He bolts, running toward her before hovering on the edge of touching her.]

...Lilith! Lilith-I-

[Oh he could sense the pain. His chest hurts looking at her. Instead he kneels. His wings spread to shield her from anything else but he does not touch her. Not yet.]

Who did this As if he doesn't know.

[sathan]

( she flinches even from him, terrified of more pain, fear coursing through her. she's afraid even though lucifer never comes here, even though her fallen angel is the only one that does )

I refused him.

( her words are so quiet. afraid, pained.

it was quite the punishment, stopping her from touching, stopping her from touching him. because at her heart he was why she'd refused )

[privatelylustful]

[I'll kill him. He doesn't read his mind. He can't know his thoughts. He wills trip his flesh bare and rip apart his wings and make her queen and build her a throne of flowers besides his throne of bones and-

I'll kill him. I'll Kill him This sudden desire to do it for a reason was shoved to the side and instead his hands hover over her shoulders because if he hurt her...

I should have fought harder. He can't. One hand touches her shoulder slowly before his eyes fill with tears and rage. He's glad she can't see them then because they burn - and they burn bright orange with a glow they've never had. She's so beautiful]

...Show me. Tell me what to do so I can heal you. Or help you.

[sathan]

( slowly her head lifts up, taking his words in, no longer caring how she looks because-- he wants to help her. oh, lilith knows that he loves her, he tells her every time they come together but-- to wish to heal her? it feels so much more.

and what she really wants to do is raise a hand to his cheek, to touch him, seek comfort through him but-- it's impossible from the pain.

will she ever be able to touch him again?

she attempts to take a deep breath, to sliw her sobs and breathing, thinking on his words )

Can-- do fallen angels have that power?

( did angels? she'd never really asked what being an angel meant he could do. it had never mattered to her -- she wanted him not his power. but now she feels like she should have known.

if not-- there were things in her garden that could be made into a poultice to relieve her pain, to wrap her hands in. it was all they could do )

[privatelylustful]

I should be able to.

[He spreads his wings and exhales.]

But I would have to take your hands. I can't-

I can sense your pain. At least I think it's pain. I'm dep-

I should-

I should be able to. Give me your hands.

[sathan]

( they've laid together many times, been intimate almost as much and whilst each time is becoming more pleasurable, something she's enjoying (but only with him, never with lucifer who's started demanding her) there's-- been something about it. he feels bliss, she feels-- pleasant.

except this time it's different. rather than his cock between her legs he has his head, lips sucking at her clit, the odd motions of his tongue stroking along her. and-- oh, it feels very different, lilith feeling a different intensity of pleasure this time.

she's laid in her garden, knees bent, hands stretched out, making fists in the grass, how he's making her feel evident with her sounds. it's the most relaxed that she's ever felt, the most wonderful. and she doesn't want it to end but-- something feels tighter within her, almost coiling in her stomach and as it builds and tightens her hips jerk against his touch as if she can't take any more )

[privatelylustful]

[Asmodeus has not...been pleased with his brother. They have argued, not just over her but also over his duties, over his brother passing skills into his mind. Is it that you care for her? Then you should be grateful for what I'm giving you so you can find your own companions

He could care less. The humans spread and multiply but she is the only one there in his mind like a sweet constant ache and he can't bare to part with her -

So when her hips buck against his he can't help but raise his head for a moment. Instinct wants to urge him on so he sits, crosslegged, his fingers sliding between her legs to keep working at her.]

Did I go too fast? Slow?

[sathan]

( she doesn't have a verbal response for him, stunned by the pure bliss that's coursing through her, cry of pleasure coming from her that she doesn't even expect. she doesn't expect any of it and-- it feels so good, just as had always been promised, just as he always seemed to feel every time he finished.

her hands had gripped tighter at the grass as it had happened but that hadn't been it. she'd been getting steadily and steadily more relaxed as he'd sucked at her, her mental control slipping and as she'd sunk further into the grass so had her magic. it had been a slight thing at first, building as her orgasm had, each of the plants around them blooming, the grass just beneath her becoming thicker and just for a brief moment when she came, fading now, things had seemed brighter.

her breath is panted as her body starts to relax again, her orgasm fading, hips instinctively rocking against his continued touch )

I want to feel that again.

( and he'll tell just from the sounds she'd made, her increased moans, how pleasured she'd sounded, the cry out at the end-- he'll know that this time was different for her. even without her magic running wild )

[privatelylustful]

[He can't pick up on her magic. He is wrenched away from the world he helped construct but her body, he could feel it build and the world brightening around her made him feel like his abilities were a good thing. A powerful thing.

His hand lowers and he smiles before moving to lay beside her and sliding a hand through her hair. His features are teasing as he toys with her breast.]

So that's pleasure. And you liked it? That's what you felt. Pleasure.

I've been doing that, with my member. And now I know I can do it to you...

[He kissed the corner of her mouth.]

[sathan]

I wish I felt it every time.

( slowly her hand comes up to rest on his cheek, lilith feeling a little more together again )

Are we doing it wrong? Am I? You've felt that pleasure each time.

( and she'd never deny him it, not when she enjoys his cock between her legs but to never have felt such bliss before--

she pushes herself up, swinging a leg over him to sit at his waist )

You're good to me. I enjoy what we do but-- you've shown me how good it can be. Where am I going wrong?

( because as much as she never normally wants to think about it she knows that he's much more experienced than she is. how many has he brought such pleasure to before? )