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privatelylustful[The world is new and he is new. There are all sorts of new instincts swimming through his mind - new words and ideas and thoughts that swim through his body. He's less bothered by his beautiful wings molting. There are new feathers growing in and they are gorgeous. Blue and green and purple with a glorious gold and purple and blue eye on the edge of each feather.
Somehow none of it matters and all of it matters but he has his rules and his things to do. It is a dry desert and the only person who can make it bloom belongs to him.
It's only fair. He has saved them and if his brother asked he would be with him with these new skills and these new feelings. It's like he's always known these things and he's seen humans do this. There's a vague memory of agreeing to it, of angels and demons sitting at a table to discuss how humans operate.
It's worth questioning.
If these are instincts for humans that he is somehow coming to understand. Wrapped in a black and gold loincloth, he stands a few feet away and watches her work.]
...The world only blooms for two people. For Her - and for you. [He smiles, and it's one full of innocence. He is crafted to be perfect and unlike his brother, he remains still beautiful. Still beloved.
Even if he doesn't feel like it anymore.]
...You have a wonderful gift.
Somehow none of it matters and all of it matters but he has his rules and his things to do. It is a dry desert and the only person who can make it bloom belongs to him.
It's only fair. He has saved them and if his brother asked he would be with him with these new skills and these new feelings. It's like he's always known these things and he's seen humans do this. There's a vague memory of agreeing to it, of angels and demons sitting at a table to discuss how humans operate.
It's worth questioning.
If these are instincts for humans that he is somehow coming to understand. Wrapped in a black and gold loincloth, he stands a few feet away and watches her work.]
...The world only blooms for two people. For Her - and for you. [He smiles, and it's one full of innocence. He is crafted to be perfect and unlike his brother, he remains still beautiful. Still beloved.
Even if he doesn't feel like it anymore.]
...You have a wonderful gift.
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Date: 2019-12-21 12:42 am (UTC)No. Her body is tense and it feels so good and she let him do this.
Press her. Take her. She's yours. Some brand new demonic instinct fills his mind and he cups her face in his hands before his eyes rolls back in his head and he gently, gently increases his speed.
His feathers ruffle and tighten around her.]
...I love you, I love you, I love you-
[His teeth close on her shoulder, it's still gentle but it may or may not draw blood.]
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Date: 2019-12-21 12:57 am (UTC)I can't--
( her hips still rock because she wants this, she doesn't want to stop, it has to feel better--
but it's too much, a sob hitting the air. and she stops, her hands slipping down from his head, resting at the back of his neck, the rest of her entirely still, afraid to move )
I'm sorry. ( it's a whisper, lilith trying to hold back her tears, fearing that she's disappointed him or even that he'll be angry. she knows that isn't what he's really like but-- it didn't go right, it had to be her fault ) I can't-- I'm sorry.
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Date: 2019-12-21 01:04 am (UTC)Oh no. It's so wrong. He has done so much wrong he always does wrong but to her, here and now...
He can make this right. He can't make his fall right. He can never make that right but that doesn't change that he loves Her and misses her. For this woman however, the first of her creations...
It's sloppy as he pulls himself out, practically grabbing himself despite the pained noise before raising a hand to her face.Shifting his hips, he pulls her down beside him, resting on a bed of his non-essential feathers. She's surrounded in blue and green and yellow eyes but his own are panicked.]
...Was it me?
You can tell me. I-
I know. I know I hurt people. I mean I fell but I know...I know...I love you so much I'm so sorry...
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Date: 2019-12-21 01:15 am (UTC)she hears his words but she can't reply, needing to just cry for a moment. (she's also bleeding a little from trying to press him in but that goes unnoticed, something that will stop before too long).
it's a couple of minutes before lilith's emotions calm enough, her body stilling again as her sobs subside, seconds more before she whispers-- )
You didn't do anything wrong.
( he'd done exactly as she'd asked, everything that she'd wanted. she'd taken him, she'd acted first-- he'd stopped when she'd asked too, comforted her in his arms, protected her throughout the whole thing. she knew that he loved her, that he didn't want to hurt her )
It was supposed to be beautiful but-- maybe that's only for the man. A pleasure for them.
( she'd never been granted any pleasures before, why would she think she could have this one? )
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Date: 2019-12-21 01:34 am (UTC)[There's something strange and ethereal in his voice, something that sounds inhuman for a moment before he exhales and inhales. When his eyes find hers they are white and gold.
That fades.]
...It can't be. I mean why would she make us in her image, you in her image, if she intended such things.
Besides. It's like an instinct. My brother has given me my domain and it is to be...the body and it's facets. It is to be all of this.
[He strokes the space between them as she lays on his feathers]
It terrifies me. I have it in me to be crueler now...so if it-If it is me...
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Date: 2019-12-21 01:43 am (UTC)You keep saying that you're cruel, that you think you could ruin me--
( and whilst yes he had hurt her it hadn't been an intentional thing, something that lilith didn't even believe was his fault )
And yet to me you've been nothing but kind, wanting only to care. To love. Look at yourself, Asmodeus. See who you are, not what he tells you you are.
( just as lilith refused to be what everyone else had tried to make her. but the thought causes her to sigh because-- she's right. it isn't him and she wasn't meant for this pleasure )
She may have made me in her image but she also intended me to submit, to serve my husband and please him. She refused me my own choices, no doubt would refuse me pleasure too.
( or perhaps it was her punishment, that something that should have been pleasurable would only cause her pain now. even so-- )
I don't want that to be it. Perhaps you're right and I can find that bliss. ( therefore implying that she'd take him again ) But I want it to be with you.
( no one else. she was not afraid even if it would cause her pain. he should at least find that joy even if she were denied it. she loved him, she'd give him it willingly )
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Date: 2019-12-21 05:08 am (UTC)Don't you want to play music brother? Don't you want to compose your own hymns to the spheres? To go where your feet tell you? This is what I will give you.
But it was hot, and it was cold, and his voice no longer sang. She made choice sound attractive. When he smiles at her his teeth look almost fanged but he hides it with a caress to her cheek. His eyes adore her swinging one leg gently over hers so they are together even if they are not together but...]
You're making choice sound attractive again-
[When she says it, I want to be with you the first thought he thinks is - But you're his except - she promises choice.]
...You mean that don't you.
[His voice is filled with wonder as he stroked her hair, his voice gentle and soft.]
...Fuck what she said. This power? Is yours. We'll be together and no one will part us.
[It feels like a painful promise but he presses his forehead to hers. It's awe and wonder that she can love him and so he says...]
I can't bless you anymore but if I could, I would bless you with the power to take what you want. But even if I can't...
[His laugh is a little grim.]
...I think you'll do it anyway.
[Something - something pulls at his mind. Demonic energy fills his mind and he shoves it away.]
Let him punish me. I don't want to leave you. I-
[He was softening between his legs but being close to her, he rolls back a hair and stares at the canopy of his own feathers.]
This hurts. This new piece of me. In a good way. IS that strange?
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Date: 2019-12-21 06:50 am (UTC)like this. it takes the forefront over punishing because really lilith doesn't want him doing that, doesn't want hum putting himself in harm's way. so when he mentions his cock--
her gaze slips down his body, eyes finding the still erect cock between his legs. it's magnificent if a little terrifying and if between her own legs didn't feel sore she'd have sat on him.
instead, her hand moves down from his cheek, travelling smooth muscle of his body before she lightly wraps her hand around his cock. and oh, does she want him between her legs, craves it almost )
You said before that I made you feel good.
( she doesn't want him to hurt, particularly not when she's the one that has caused this in him )
Let me do so.
( lilith presses a kiss to his chest before pushing herself up slightly, her gaze finding his as she rubs her hand slowly down his length, touch firmer than when she'd done this before )
Let me ease what I caused. You should know that bliss.
( even if she cant yet )